I would like to start this weeks blog post with brutal honesty. This week has been rough for many reasons. Mainly I am feeling so "out of control". I feel like I put in my head the expectation that pregnancy should be such a happy and exciting time, ALL the time, but to be honest it is not happy ALL the time. I feel out of control of my mind, my body, and my heart. I feel like my high school girl stage where I was negative, sad, teary, up then down, then up, then hating life again... for no apparent reason. My emotions are on HIGH ALERT. I literally cry for no reason or get super mad when there is no reason to feel that way. My poor husband thinks I am out of my mind (bc i feel like i am!) and that I don't make any sense. I literally came home yesterday to a clean house & kitchen, cleaned up soon-to-be baby room and I got mad at him for moving something! Thats all i said to him but that he shouldn't have moved something... I didn't even acknowledge anything nice that he had done. I feel so helpless. To top off the emotions, my 'sharp' mind is disappearing. I forget things all the time, i change my mind in an instant, and I lose certain words. In addition, I feel like I am physically growing nonstop (I know I am growing a human)... but my boobs are exploding out of my bras and my bra is too tight on the loosest clip, my pants only fit when I am standing... who only stands? and I just feel so fat, SO FAST! I thought I was watching what I was eating but when your hungry, tired, hot, and moody licorice and veggies straws are the only thing I want to eat! Lastly, my heart is making me feel like I regret not being newlyweds longer. We went from total bliss to pregnant! Of course that is what we wanted and talked about, but in a weird way I feel like I am mourning a loss of just "us". Of course everyone says that will soon be forgotten once the little one is put in our arms, but all these feelings are just overwhelming. Whew.
How many weeks pregnant?
17 weeks
Which trimester are you in?
Baby’s size?
Baby is approx 5inches, 5oz, size of a turnip
Have you started to show yet?
Yes. I have now noticed how different everyone "shows". Being that I am an early shower, I am nervous to see what happens in the next few months. I am trying hard to embrace the fact that there is a human growing inside and how much of a miracle it really is.
Yes. I have now noticed how different everyone "shows". Being that I am an early shower, I am nervous to see what happens in the next few months. I am trying hard to embrace the fact that there is a human growing inside and how much of a miracle it really is.
What are some of your pregnancy symptoms?
Slow... I feel as though I am walking through mud or sand at all times. Occasional headaches, constipation, Forgetfulness, on and off stuffy nose, increased appetite
Slow... I feel as though I am walking through mud or sand at all times. Occasional headaches, constipation, Forgetfulness, on and off stuffy nose, increased appetite
Happy or moody most of the time?
Super moody.
Super moody.
Any cravings?
Finally figured out a true craving... Coconut! I did not like coconut before pregnancy, but currently I love anything with coconut, especially trader Joe's chocolate covered almonds with coconut. I also had an iced coffee (yes i drank coffee without barfing!) made with coconut cream... I have no idea what it was but it was SO good! I also really like Almonds as those taste similar to the fresh coconuts we had in Tahiti. I also still really enjoy licorice (both red & black) and veggie stix (the unhealthy kind).
Finally figured out a true craving... Coconut! I did not like coconut before pregnancy, but currently I love anything with coconut, especially trader Joe's chocolate covered almonds with coconut. I also had an iced coffee (yes i drank coffee without barfing!) made with coconut cream... I have no idea what it was but it was SO good! I also really like Almonds as those taste similar to the fresh coconuts we had in Tahiti. I also still really enjoy licorice (both red & black) and veggie stix (the unhealthy kind).
Any food aversions?
Im not a huge fan of chicken or bacon. I will eat both, but would prefer neither. Which makes eating sandwiches hard, since I am not supposed to eat deli meat, my fall back is chicken or BLT's.
Im not a huge fan of chicken or bacon. I will eat both, but would prefer neither. Which makes eating sandwiches hard, since I am not supposed to eat deli meat, my fall back is chicken or BLT's.
Sleep?
Sleep has been good to me this week. I think its because I have been such an emotional wreck!
Sleep has been good to me this week. I think its because I have been such an emotional wreck!
Highlight of the week?
Jameson and I got to spend the day with our nephew Sam (my brother's kid). For all of our nephews 2nd birthdays we gave them an "Auntie & Uncle" day out gift so that we could spend some quality time with them and our brothers and SIL's could have a day to themselves!
Video of Sam's day out to come!
Jameson and I got to spend the day with our nephew Sam (my brother's kid). For all of our nephews 2nd birthdays we gave them an "Auntie & Uncle" day out gift so that we could spend some quality time with them and our brothers and SIL's could have a day to themselves!
Video of Sam's day out to come!
Are you wearing maternity clothes yet?
Yes and no. Yesterday had trouble with my hospital scrubs as the shirt was already a bit short and the pants are high waisted... it as a very uncomfortable day. Again, trying to embrace the changes but frustrated with not fitting in my clothes.
Have any stretch marks?
Every night after Jameson gives me my injection he uses the "chocolate butter" - my pregnancy nose makes the coco butter literally smell like chocolate! It is a nice gesture that he makes to take care of my growing belly.
Every night after Jameson gives me my injection he uses the "chocolate butter" - my pregnancy nose makes the coco butter literally smell like chocolate! It is a nice gesture that he makes to take care of my growing belly.
Has your belly button popped out?
Still an innie! Jameson has been taking weekly photos to monitor :)
Still an innie! Jameson has been taking weekly photos to monitor :)
Feel any kicks?
Nothing yet. They say 18-22 weeks is typical. After dinner I lay on the couch and try really hard to feel something, but I have yet to feel anything consistent. Hoping it comes sooner than later!
Nothing yet. They say 18-22 weeks is typical. After dinner I lay on the couch and try really hard to feel something, but I have yet to feel anything consistent. Hoping it comes sooner than later!
Gender prediction:
We started discussing names and we came up with one boy name we both liked enough to write down, but cannot agree on any girl names... we'll see if that changes. Also not knowing the gender has really helped with my shopping problem!
We started discussing names and we came up with one boy name we both liked enough to write down, but cannot agree on any girl names... we'll see if that changes. Also not knowing the gender has really helped with my shopping problem!
How has Dad been this week?
Thank god only one of us has to go through the emotional rollercoaster! Can you imagine if men had to? I am so thankful he can put up with my mess of emotions and still remind me the positives when I am crying for no reason!
Week 17 belly photo
Brave belly shot
Thank god only one of us has to go through the emotional rollercoaster! Can you imagine if men had to? I am so thankful he can put up with my mess of emotions and still remind me the positives when I am crying for no reason!
Week 17 belly photo
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